It has occurred to me I am posting less and less over time.
An indication perhaps I have said pretty much everything I deemed worthy of being said and that needed to be said about the babeshow product.
Without wishing to blow my own trumpet it has also occurred to me that in many ways I saw what was coming in various respects many years hence.
I am proud to have called out so much in advance all that I still believe to be reprehensible and wrong as regards babeshow culture.
I took no pleasure in posting so much criticism that I suspected to be justified. And I take no pleasure in having been proven correct in so many of my suspicions either.
The sad thing now is that the spark just isn't there anymore.
I am getting bored more and more easily.
I would like to claim it as an indication that I am growing up but perhaps that notion is somewhat far fetched
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More likely is that the process driven and profit obsessive nature of the shows and babe mentality is such I have been turned off.
The way BS is run is set up to the disadvantage of the babes who end up having to plug things to the very death to get anywhere including only fans.
The enjoyment factor of the nightshows has largely dissipated with very few exceptions. It has reached a point where unless Beth or Lanta are on I pretty much concede defeat and wave the white flag of a night.
That is very sad but in a strange way another source of pride.
The one trait I crave more than any other is honesty of endeavour.
That is why Beth and Lanta command my respect so much.
They set an unmatched example on nights that is matched only by Danni Levy on days.
Those three are beacons of hope and prime examples of the best in human nature that I aspire to match as much as I can.
My capacity to meet those standards has waned especially over the last year or so. I am now too cynical, too paranoid, too stubborn and too intransigent.
That natural realization has instinctively resulted in a much lower post output and lower quality of posts.
My focus now will turn more frequently to non babeshow related subjects in the large majority. With nightshows the golden era as I knew it has long since gone. The thrill of the strip on the phone with the likes of Clare, Ashley, Lola Knight etc are distant memories.
I am here and will remain here but not in the way I once was.
In snooker terms I see no reds on the table so am feeding off scraps potting the colours at the end. I can pot a few babeshow balls but can't win frames.
I used to be called Snookered and feel my old username more than ever.
This forum has given me so much in the darkest of times that I would see it as an act of betrayal to leave it behind.
So remain I shall in support of all those of you that keep this place authentic and strong. I will back your right to voice your opinions to the very end.
I may not post as much as I used to but I care deeply about this forum and value the fun I have had here all these years.
So thank you all. Thank you all so very much
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