RE: Delusional "fans"
I also went through a "delusional fan" phase with one girl on BS a few years back, spending a quite obscene amount of money on her over the course of about 18 months, and it too started with the introduction of the buzz toy and the element of physical interaction it provided that I found impossible to resist. I'd never even called the channels before that moment, but I jumped right into the deep end head first!
This thread has been interesting reading for me. It's brought up some bad memories of that time, when I was going through the mental battle of "this is costing me a bomb" weighed up against "I really do think this is genuine"....but mainly it's been strangely reassuring to learn that I am far from alone in not only treading that path, but also looking back on it with a mixture of shame, regret, and a feeling of stupidity made all the harder to explain by the fact that on some small level, you still like knowing that it actually happened.
At the time, I would've sworn blind to anyone's face that she "liked" me and we were different. What we have is meaningful, and real. Of course, reality does eventually come crashing in and you have to accept that it isn't what you so desperately hoped, and if anyone was to hit me with the obligatory "I told you so" I'd be hard pushed to argue, but one area where I do disagree with the general sentiment of this thread is the assertion that all the girls literally treat it as a job, with absolutely no time or place for soft spots or degrees of affection for certain punters.
I think to state that as a blanket fact is to paint all the models with the same brush a little too broadly. Yes, there are some to whom that characterisation is entirely accurate, but there are plenty of others who unquestionably straddle the line and probably find themselves having to make a difficult decision at some point. In my case, the model retired from BS and (as many on here will state - entirely predictably) we haven't had any contact since, but when we said goodbye for the final time she was in tears (and this was a girl who NEVER showed emotion), so I'm sorry but I just can't subscribe to the notion that the girls do not or simply cannot care.
Maybe that means I'm still as delusional as ever, but for the record, I haven't used BS, Rampant or BSCams for over a year now. I don't even look at them anymore. And I accept I'm not a regular poster on here so feel free to dismiss this as the incoherent ramblings of a mad man (again, hard pushed to argue!) but I just wanted to make that point. Thanks to everyone that has contributed to this thread...it's more cathartic than you probably realise.
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