Hello everyone,
I sincerely hope you're all doing OK and enjoying the shows within your budget.
Also, thanks to those of you have inboxed me privately to share your own addiction stories and for those that thanked me for creating this thread and being so open and honest, I wish to thank you in kind. I really do appreciate you, empathise with you & wish you luck with it.
Had a recent relapse
Soooooo, I was doing quite well DTW-wise until the 4th of July when Abbey & Macy were doing some sort of half-on-screen, half-not-on-screen S66 stream shows and I felt rather intrigued about quite what level of interaction they were having with daytime callers... and erm... got a bit horny at the thought
For technical reasons, when I gave in to my desires and tried to call, I'd achieve a connection, but there was no sound? Also, I rang back multiple times, using that 5 digit onscreen number, but was experiencing the most bizarre technical issues, but by this point it was too late to give up. I was in the grip of addiction and re-dialed several more times with no luck, until I tried via an alternative live streaming website and finally got to... listen into another caller for several minutes before I was briefly connected and was then returned to the main menu
I then hung up and swore very loudly, calling myself a f****** weak idiot.
Over the next few days, I was back to regularly ringing a few of my favourite presenters (Reed Amber is irresistible as far as I am concerned and Pippa Doll is just... dear God what a woman!) and was running up my bill every other day and so, as you can see in the photo above, I eventually saw sense and went back to using my tried and trusted method of crossing off "bad days" and ticking off the "good days".
This really does, at least in my case, help with weaning me off the compulsion to even tune into the babechannels at all.
Eventually, I achieved my goal of staying "sober" for 7 days straight, it wasn't without a few extra stumbles, resulting in a whopping mobile contract bill that's crippled me financially, this month.
Now as you can see below...
... I have managed to keep the streak going.
It's the 16th today, but the day ain't over yet, so I won't be ticking off that particular box until bed time.
I fully admit it's very VERY sad that 7 days should be regarded as such a huge milestone for me, but I felt extremely proud and relieved to reach it.
Plus, I hadn't had to feel that post-call shame for several days which does wonders for alleviating feelings of depression.
Right, I have 8 hours left of my day, so I gots to keep myself a busy bee and my mind off of whomever might be live on my telebox right now and earn myself another green tick.
Take care my good fellows